When I picked the child I care for up from camp today, his camp counselor (and school speech therapist) said to me, "He's going to miss you when you leave."
I'm sure that was said as a compliment, to say that I've been a good caregiver. But the knowledge that he's going to miss me, that he's going to be confused and upset that I'm no longer there (I'm hoping that we'll do such a great transition that that won't be the case, but it's a very legitimate possibility)...it HURTS, you guys. I know I'm leaving to get more training to help autistic kids like him. I know that. But that doesn't make the knowledge that I might be hurting him by leaving hurt ME less.
On the positive side, today has been an absolutely AMAZING day. And that knowledge, the knowledge of how far we've come...that's the only thing that makes me feel a bit better.
Sorry for the down beat post you guys, I'll be back to up beat autism understanding posts later.
-Creigh
I'm sure that was said as a compliment, to say that I've been a good caregiver. But the knowledge that he's going to miss me, that he's going to be confused and upset that I'm no longer there (I'm hoping that we'll do such a great transition that that won't be the case, but it's a very legitimate possibility)...it HURTS, you guys. I know I'm leaving to get more training to help autistic kids like him. I know that. But that doesn't make the knowledge that I might be hurting him by leaving hurt ME less.
On the positive side, today has been an absolutely AMAZING day. And that knowledge, the knowledge of how far we've come...that's the only thing that makes me feel a bit better.
Sorry for the down beat post you guys, I'll be back to up beat autism understanding posts later.
-Creigh
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